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I've been out of school for 2 1/2 years now. Mum and dad were pushing me to go back and finish what I started so this week I went to a local college to see what courses they did (Not university - different things). It's not something I particularly want to do but I went along with it and spoke to some tutors with my dad. Over the hour we were there I was getting more and more agitated, worried something bad was going to happen. I ended up snapping and shouting at my dad because he was talking for me. "He's an excellent lad, very bright. He can handle all the work". All while I was looking at posters on the wall about learning and what science can do for me. So we went home where I had another snap at my mum, threw a tantrum and shut myself away.


It gradually dawned on me this evening. I have a genuine phobia of schools. For the last four or five months I've been having nightmares every night all involving people from school, but not necessarily in school. Then once or twice a week I would dream about being back in school not having a clue what I was doing. Being in that college must have triggered something in my mind that made me very short tempered. I didn't really notice before but I get a bit worried when I drive past my old school. I also get very nervous when I go past kids on their way to school, almost like meeting a potential mugger at night.

I absolutely hated school while I was there. I was bullied, pushed aside and ignored by even the teachers. Then I started 6th Form at 16/17 years old. School turned into a place to meet my friends with a bit of work on the side. I eventually stopped caring for anything which lead to me dropping out. Not many positive experiences.

I never thought of myself having a phobia, but there it is. An irrational fear of something. So... what phobias do other people have?

(PS, it's late and I'm somewhat tired but wide awake, hence the seemingly pointless thread - We need more threads anyway)

The thing about bullying is you have to be an asshole, even if it means getting beat up (I only was once in th grade, but not harrased that much anymore).  like today someone pissed me off so I tore up there notebook and homework and threw his calculator at the wall.

It's not a phobia like yours but I've always hated school.  For the 2 months before school starts each summer, I'll have dreams where I don't have my schedule and I have no idea where my next class is.  I've had them since around 7th grade. 


I also have a phobia about ladders.  I can never climb past the 2nd or 3rd step.  I can climb a tree and I don't really have a problem with heights, but I just can't go up a damn ladder.  If I have to go on the roof at the house, I climb out the window and get onto the roof that way instead of going up an 8 foot ladder. 

I have a phobia about large social gathering. I get sick to my stomach and don't want to go. Once I am there I am usually OK like ate a concert or something. A party where i don't know anyone sucks. I just keep to myself. If people come up to me I will talk but I don't go up to talk to people.